”I think that it’s awful when people misinterpret my being uncomfortable as ‘I don’t want to be here.’ It’s really the opposite — I’m too concerned. I absolutely love it so much. I don’t expect to seem cool to everyone; nor do I want to be. I think that’s the opposite of the definition of cool. So I don’t care at all. It’s like, “you absolutely despise me and you don’t even know me.”
It was sort of the pattern to my life - I’d never been strong enough to deal with the things outside my control, to attack the enemies or outrun them. To avoid the pain. Always human and weak, the only thing I’d ever been able to do was keep going. Endure. Survive.